Venting my frustrations the way I know how......

I just have to get this off my chest. I know those guilty ones would get all upset and defensive. But I don't really care since you don't play your part right.

1. Money does not gives one the excuse to shy away from other duties. Even if you do contribute more financially on certain things (and sometimes you don't), don't order people around like your slaves.

2. Being the majority contributor financially for your child does not make you a good parent. You are merely an egg/sperm donor and ATM machine, if you don't share the other responsibility of your child upbringing.

3. Don't try to brag about those little things you do once in a blue moon when other people are doing it quietly, diligently everyday out of love.

4. Being a senior does not mean you are right in everything and expect the junior to follow your way of doing things.

Money or rank does not make you more superior than others. Of course I know it is none of my business whatever happen between the people involved as I understand most of the time some people are willing to accommodate and compromise due to money or some other reasons. It's their own arrangement.

But I absolutely cannot tolerate when the same things being applies to the other people who are outside the 'arrangement'. Why must others bear with that? And yes, I do know the answer. It's to maintain the peace, of course.

So after venting out my frustration here, guess I just have to suck it up and continue to endure it just like the rest.

Peace.

And I'm Feeling Good...

So I was mentioning about a random act of kindness I did to a stranger this evening and this is what actually happened.

I was on my way home from work and it was pouring heavily and everywhere was jam.

While driving passed rows of bridal houses in SS2, I saw a guy holding an umbrella, a big paper bag and a backpack. He was walking at the side of the busy and wet road very slowly as he was really struggling. He was using a walking aid because I noticed he has polio.

In that split second, I decided to offer him a lift. So I stopped my car at the side (at the front porch of a bungalow (it's a bridal shop), asked the guy where is he heading and I told him I will give him a lift. 

Due to his disability and all the things he was carrying, he was really struggling. Seeing that, I just got down from my car, in the rain, I unload everything from him and put everything in my car while he slowly get into my car. While I was standing in the rain loading his stuffs in my car, and my car did not block the road at all, some drivers actually honked at me and there were a few purposely drove near the pool of water and we were splashed (yes, there are some inconsiderate ppl out there). Sad. :(

Apparently the guy is in his 30's and he is going for his wedding photo shoot tomorrow so he was actually running some errands for tomorrow event.

So after got him and his stuffs settled in my car, I drove him to the laundry and helped him to picked up his shirts for the photo shoot and then dropped him to the hotel he is staying.

It was a simple gesture to help someone who obviously in need of a helping hand, never mind the rain or got splashed by dirty water. It was all worth while. :)

How Will I Die?

I can't help but always wonder how will I die?

In general, my health is not really in very good condition since young. I always experience lots of pain here and there without knowing what is the cause of it. With the exception of the CT scan I did a few years back due to frequent severe migraine attack, I have not really seen any specialist to find out if there is really something wrong with my body or am I in high risk of certain diseases.

About two to three years ago, my body started to react very differently towards certain things.  I would get this sharp 'electric-shock' like pain on my entire face when I got a shock or being frighten suddenly and the pain is excruciating. The pain would last for few good minutes and sometimes a small part of my face would feel numb for a brief moment. I shared this to a GP before about this condition of mine and all I get was being ridiculed by the GP. It was as if I've made something up and there is no such health 'condition' exist. :(

I also get anxiety attack when I am stress and when I get panic. Not sure it has anything to do with age catching up or my stress tolerance threshold getting lower.

Another condition I'm experience is food allergies and I always have swells and growths at my lymph nodes, mostly at the side and back of my ears, neck and head and when it get really bad it would extend to my face a well. I know part of it is due to my food allergies and another part I do suspect there may be something wrong with my lymphatic system. Sometimes I would get this stabbing pain near my lymph node at the back of my ear(s). Though the pain is bearable most of the time, it is really annoying and uncomfortable as it also affecting my sleep.

I just hope I would not just 'switch off' and leave this world without saying a proper goodbye to my love ones. That is exactly what happened to my dad. No known sickness and one day his system just snap and my dad was gone just like that within minutes.

Honestly, may be I'm just worrying too much and being too paranoid. Hope there is nothing wrong with my health. -_-

We Are Malaysians. We Are One.

I am more disappointed with those who are still arguing and making racism remarks than the loss battle of GE13.

I really don’t like to keep using word like Malay, Chinese, India, etc. as we are all Malaysians. Period. But in order to state my point clearly I would have to do so. Thus, please pardon me.

It saddens me to see some of the fellow Malays’ brother and sisters fighting among themselves due to different opinions. And NO, despite some of them always like to say, “the Cina are very happy seeing us Malays fighting with each other”, we take no pleasure in that. 

Do you think all the Chinese in Malaysia don’t fight among ourselves? You think we see eye to eye in everything? Same goes to the Indian, Kadazan, Iban and other races in this land. We all have our differences but we learnt to put away our differences and we unite and fight together because we have the same goal, Ubah (Change). Not because we are Malay, Chinese, India, etc., it’s because we are Malaysians. Why do you think the majority of Chinese voted against MCA and chose representatives from PKR of Malay ethnic instead?

Bersih and PRU’s Ubah Manifesto are not a battle among races. It is a battle of the Rakyat against the corrupted government ruled by BN.

There are many fellow Malays still fearful that Chinese would take over Malaysia if Pakatan Rakyat becomes the new government. Come on my friends, please be realistic. Malays are the majority in Malaysia and if without any blessing from the Malay community, you really think Chinese can take over Malaysia?! I can tell you, Not A Chance. Look at other country when the Leader is not favourable by the majority, it only lead to one thing, CHAOS. And none of us want that.

Stop asking those of Chinese ethnic to balik China, Indian ethic to balik India nor Malay ethnic to balik Indonesia. We will not be received and treated as their own. To them we would just be immigrants. We are Malaysian. All our nenek moyang came to this land many many years ago and we all belong here, Malaysia. This is our land, this is our Home.

There are good and bad people in all races and religions. Neither one race nor religion is better than the other. Judge not a person base on their race nor religion, but the individual’s value. 

I have lived among Malay communities since the age of 12 ever since my parents moved to Shah Alam. We have live in harmony all these years and we always look out and help each other whenever necessary. In the past 10 years, many Chinese have moved out from Shah Alam but not my family. Since my dad passed away in Dec 2011, while sometimes my sisters or myself not able to take leave to assist my mom on something, my mom would have no problem seeking any help from the neighbors. All are very helpful and in fact they would go the extra mile when needed without my mom asking. 

Because of my childhood experience, I am never racist. We need each other equally in different aspects. Without each other support among all Malaysian it would be hard for us to move forward as a nation.

Many have to understand that we who voted against BN, are not against BN, we are just against the corrupted individuals. If BN is willing and sincerely repent and to set things right again, we would love to have them continue to govern Malaysia in many years to come, after all, they have the experience and despite of all the corruptions, they have also contributed a lot and we have much to be thankful for.

So let’s put away our differences and together we fight for a better Malaysia and a better government. 

One Love and Peace.

Sorry but No Regrets

I am truly sorry for all the mistakes I've made in my life. But, I do not regret it at all. Yes, not at all. 

Regret simply means that you wish that things could have happened differently and if given a chance, you would like to do it right so that you wouldn't hurt anyone including yourselves. 

I am sorry but no regrets. In fact, I am really thankful for all the mistakes I have made in the past because it let me get to know myself a whole lot better. It was a real shocker to find out to what extend and how mean I could be when I was in certain situations. Well, I did not like my dark side but it was good to discover that side of me. And through those experiences (which I totally not proud of) have make me a better person.

We will never know what and how we will handle a situation until we are in that shoe. So in my humble opinion, it is totally unfair for us who are not involve to comment and criticize what should or should not be done in a certain situation. We can say all we want like 'if it was me, I will never do that' or even curse people for what they have done. Of course these exclude those really bad things that would threaten one's life and safety.For I have made mistake that I detest so strongly in the past and was so sure that I will Never do those things. But in the end I got many Big Tight Slaps to my own face.

To be honest, No one will ever stop making mistakes (no matter what) because to err is human. Not that I'm trying to justify for making mistakes but one important thing I have learned from all the mistakes I've made is, Never Say Never. I will always remind myself of the mistakes made and try my best not to repeat them. Even when I've been forgiven, but (the mistakes made) should not be forgotten.

Turn every experience, even those mistake we've made as a lesson and motivation to drive us to be a better person as a grandparent, parent, brother, sister, friend, co-worker, employee and etc..

Good Intention... Bad Execution.

There are times when we try to help and get involve in other people business with a good intention, more often than not, we are backfired.

Well, I know some people just don't like 3rd party meddling with their matters. It doesn't matter how good your intention is and no matter how much you do, they would not appreciate even though things did turn out well. To them it is like, "I never ask for your help. Stop being busy body and mind your own business!".

When something already happened, it is always easy for outsiders to say things like, "I would have done it differently." But come on, be real man. We can say all we want but the truth is, we wouldn't know how we would handle a situation unless we ourselves are caught in the situation. And even that, there are times, when we think back the whole situation and we realize there is a better way to do it. But what done is done.

Sometimes good intention with bad execution is simply a disaster. It could leads to a lot of unnecessary misunderstanding and argument. But then again, how do we know what is the best or right approach since we couldn't see the future nor expect how would someone react? 

So the question is if you have a chance to turn back the clock, would you do the same or use a different approach, or rather not do anything at all?

Living Life... Meaningfully.

I used to think to have a meaningful life is having to do something great, something unique or  achieve something extraordinary.

Having lived for 36 years++ , I have come to a conclusion that to live a meaningful life is nothing as simple as making the best out of what we have in life at all time, appreciate all those who love and cherish us, do good and never harm others for our personal gains, be contented but work diligently and overtly for a better future.

Of course it would be nice if I do achieve something big and extraordinary and be remembered by others. But how do we define what is the ordinary or extraordinary?

In my humble opinion, what defines 'extraordinary' is the impact of our gestures in ours and someone else lives. Every small little words of comfort or motivation could change people life. A small simple good deed could save someone's life.

So, not everyone has to be a superstar nor noble prize winner to be considered as 'extraordinary' or 'meaningful'. Every little kindness is an act of compassion, and that is the greatest part of humanity.

Get out there to serve and help others without expecting any return or recognition, now that is extraordinary and meaningful.

God Bless.