I can't help but always wonder how will I die?
In general, my health is not really in very good condition since young. I always experience lots of pain here and there without knowing what is the cause of it. With the exception of the CT scan I did a few years back due to frequent severe migraine attack, I have not really seen any specialist to find out if there is really something wrong with my body or am I in high risk of certain diseases.
About two to three years ago, my body started to react very differently towards certain things. I would get this sharp 'electric-shock' like pain on my entire face when I got a shock or being frighten suddenly and the pain is excruciating. The pain would last for few good minutes and sometimes a small part of my face would feel numb for a brief moment. I shared this to a GP before about this condition of mine and all I get was being ridiculed by the GP. It was as if I've made something up and there is no such health 'condition' exist. :(
I also get anxiety attack when I am stress and when I get panic. Not sure it has anything to do with age catching up or my stress tolerance threshold getting lower.
Another condition I'm experience is food allergies and I always have swells and growths at my lymph nodes, mostly at the side and back of my ears, neck and head and when it get really bad it would extend to my face a well. I know part of it is due to my food allergies and another part I do suspect there may be something wrong with my lymphatic system. Sometimes I would get this stabbing pain near my lymph node at the back of my ear(s). Though the pain is bearable most of the time, it is really annoying and uncomfortable as it also affecting my sleep.
I just hope I would not just 'switch off' and leave this world without saying a proper goodbye to my love ones. That is exactly what happened to my dad. No known sickness and one day his system just snap and my dad was gone just like that within minutes.
Honestly, may be I'm just worrying too much and being too paranoid. Hope there is nothing wrong with my health. -_-
In general, my health is not really in very good condition since young. I always experience lots of pain here and there without knowing what is the cause of it. With the exception of the CT scan I did a few years back due to frequent severe migraine attack, I have not really seen any specialist to find out if there is really something wrong with my body or am I in high risk of certain diseases.
About two to three years ago, my body started to react very differently towards certain things. I would get this sharp 'electric-shock' like pain on my entire face when I got a shock or being frighten suddenly and the pain is excruciating. The pain would last for few good minutes and sometimes a small part of my face would feel numb for a brief moment. I shared this to a GP before about this condition of mine and all I get was being ridiculed by the GP. It was as if I've made something up and there is no such health 'condition' exist. :(
I also get anxiety attack when I am stress and when I get panic. Not sure it has anything to do with age catching up or my stress tolerance threshold getting lower.
Another condition I'm experience is food allergies and I always have swells and growths at my lymph nodes, mostly at the side and back of my ears, neck and head and when it get really bad it would extend to my face a well. I know part of it is due to my food allergies and another part I do suspect there may be something wrong with my lymphatic system. Sometimes I would get this stabbing pain near my lymph node at the back of my ear(s). Though the pain is bearable most of the time, it is really annoying and uncomfortable as it also affecting my sleep.
I just hope I would not just 'switch off' and leave this world without saying a proper goodbye to my love ones. That is exactly what happened to my dad. No known sickness and one day his system just snap and my dad was gone just like that within minutes.
Honestly, may be I'm just worrying too much and being too paranoid. Hope there is nothing wrong with my health. -_-
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