Sunday, October 21, 2012

You Are Not Fat!

It is funny that there are a lot of girls came up to me and tell me how slim I am and they wish to be like me. And yes, this is nothing new as I have blogged about this topic a few times before.

There are times people who made those comments are 'fleshier' than me and I can totally understand their frustration of wanting to lose a few pounds and find it difficult to do so. While some might not say it out loud but some were really forward by asking me, "Do you eat?". Hmmm... what kind of question is that?!?!? To set the record straight. I eat and I can never go on diet coz I have gastric problem since very young age. How I maintain and be this slim? I really have no idea as I really don't make much effort to keep fit. Somebody gonna shoot me, but I am not showing off. It is what it is.

But most of the time, I have girls who are either as slim as me if not thinner, telling me that I look so slim in my pictures and look even slimmer in person. It is funny how we often can't see our physique and you know we can never trust the mirror. No, seriously, we can never trust what we see in the mirror because there are mirrors that make us look either thinner or fatter than we really are.

This happen many years ago, a friend of mine was in the ladies with me and we were standing next to each other in front of a full length mirror. She turned to me and looked herself in the mirror and she asked, am I as slim as you?. For the matter of fact, I took a look at the mirror of our reflections and indeed we are about the same size, so I told her, yes. And she said, but why can't I see myself as slim as you. So I told her it is very normal as we human can never see ourselves clearly externally. I told her to look at both our reflections in the mirror carefully, do we look almost the same size? Yes, she said. Then you are as slim as me, I said. :D

So girls.... stop saying yourselves fat when you are not. If  all the people who met you say that you are slim, then you are. Stop arguing and complaining that you are fat. Especially for people who are really 'meaty' and haven't been very successful in shedding some extra fat, it is really annoying. :P

Fat or thin.... I guess majority are just the same..... we all have body issues in some way. The fat ones know that they are fat, the skinny ones think that they are fat. Hmmmm......

Monday, October 15, 2012

Trouble Face

I told my hubby yesterday, '...sometimes, I wish to have a more commonly likable face' because since young, a lot of people don't like me and even family and relatives also used to preferred my younger sister or my other cousins simply because I don't have this 'likable' or pretty face like others.

I had a lot of sad sad memories from my childhood and I must say as much as I try to forget and move on but the damage was done. No matter how much time has passed, my self esteem was wounded and there will always be a scar there no matter how faint it has become over time.

Even now as I have grown up, I know there are still people dislike me just because of how I look and perhaps this is what people called 'Yeong Soi' in Cantonese (some one who has an unlikable/unpleasant features).

It is funny to know that people often find me looking fierce and not approachable by my look but most of the time I always smile at people. Perhaps it's my serious look when I don't smile that scares people. But I also believe it has something to do with my facial structure. People who has strong/square jawline often give people a very hard/fierce/masculine impression.

Maybe I should go and saw off my jaw bones to make my face looks smaller and more feminine. Should I... should I? :P

But honestly, I just hope to have a healthy, smooth and clear complexion. Due to some internal health issues, I have been battling with acne problems for years. As I approach 40's, the problems don't seem to be lesser, in fact my body is getting more and more sensitive and I have to be extra careful with what I consume and watch my stress level. Because if I'm not careful, it would aggregate my acne problems and I'll have to start all over again to combat the acne. :(

All I want is a problem free skin.... :( Can I have it..... please?