Time To Say Goodbye....

We all know that the year of 2014 has not been a good year for many. To my fellow mankind around the world, there were many natural disasters and man made tragedies took place everywhere. To my fellow Malaysians, it has been a really sad year for us as many tragedies and natural disasters took place even right up to the very end of 2014 things are not looking any better. To my friends and acquaintances, many have loss their loved ones unexpectedly. And finally to myself, Keith and my family members who have loss our beloved daughter, granddaughter, niece and cousin sister, Cassandra Long Sze Yi.

As much as I tried my best to live happily for myself, for Keith, for my loved ones and for angel baby Cassandra, I couldn't help feeling sad and down after hearing bad news one after another. Since last Sunday I've been in this constant verge of tears because there are really a lot of sadness to take in.

As much as I Hate the year of 2014, I also Love it. Yes, it's a Love-Hate thing. I hate it because so many sad incidents took place not only to ourselves but to people who are close to us. I Love it because it is the year where Cassandra came in to our lives. We wished for our daughter to be with us still but we all know it wouldn't happen. Nonetheless, we are thankful that year 2014 has brought our daughter to us.

As we are saying goodbye to 2014, we pray and hope that 2015 will be a better year for everyone especially all the kind people who have gone through so much heartache this year and very much deserve to have more blessings and happiness in their lives. Being Happy is a choice we can choose at time of distress;It is not an easy journey but it is doable. But it will be good not having to make a conscious effort to be happy.

I don't have much to say as I try not to think too much about everything that took place this year but at least we have something to be happy about, that is at least we had the chance to meet our lovely Cassandra. Although she only lived for 10 days in this world but she has achieved so much more than many people who have lived and passed on at old age. Our Cassandra managed to reached out, touched and healed so many people out there who have came to know her and our story. Keith and I are very proud and honored to be chosen to be her parents. Cassandra will be forever loved and forever missed.

Lat but not least, we sincerely thank you, family, friends and acquaintances near and far, we thank you for being with us through all the ups and downs and we are glad to have you guys in our lives. As I always believe that no matter how bad a situation is there's always something good coming out of it,. Indeed, in the midst of sorrows, we have gained so much more than we could ask for; for that we are grateful and will forever treasure it for the rest of our lives.

So Goodbye 2014!

From: Angel Cassandra

Today we finally have all the gifts bought for the orphans in Rumah Anak Gembira in Klang.

Me and my 2 sisters in law started wrapping the gifts after dinner and it was so fun and fulfilling to do that knowing we will make 10 kids happy and feel loved.

While me and eldest sis in law were wrapping the gifts, my 2nd sis in law was writing the labels for each gift and she asked, "what should we write for the 'From, ??'. Think of a nickname or something". Then, my eldest sis in law replied, "Cassandra". 2nd sis in law looked at me and asked,"Sure? Write Cassandra?". As soon as I recovered from the unexpected answer, I quickly said, "Yes! Write Angel Cassandra. Thank you!" (as I bowed slightly). And eldest sis in law continued, "This is for her". Needless to say, eldest sis in law and myself (the emotional ones) cried a little after that short exchange.

Honestly, I didn't expect anyone would suggest to put Cassandra name with the exception of me and Keith but of course I wouldn't dare to suggest it. This really mean so so much to me and Keith and we feel so blessed and loved that our family members and close circle of friends are always being so supportive. Although we don't really talk about Cassandra much to other family members but on the occasions that we do, the response we get is always very warmth and positive.

We started this charity drive since year 2010 and so far we have the best response this year. We don't know what change but we believe Cassandra has touched many people's hearts and she has planted the desire in their hearts to help the needy.

Thank you everyone for joining us to honor our little girl. :)

All the Love and Prayers to you.

From, 
Angel Cassandra

She is Loved

Took my mom out today to this Mari Market @ APW Bangsar and had our light lunch. We only spent a short 30 minutes there as nothing interest us. We then headed over to BSC to walk around a bit before settled down at a restaurant for tea.

I know the only time my mom saw angel baby Cassandra was on her funeral and I also know both my sisters did not show my mom the artworks of Cassandra done by kind people from all around the world. I wasn't sure if I should bring up Cassandra but I want my mom to look at our precious little girl again and see the beautiful artworks we have received, so I decided to take out my phone and start telling her about the artworks.

At first my mom just casually asked me if we have to pay for all the artworks when I was sliding my phone to show her the photos. Then I noticed a silence after a while so I looked up, and there was the tears on my mom's face flowing uncontrollably.

I immediately keep my phone away and I too was choked and tried to hold back my tears. :(

Although Cassandra was only with us for 10 days and her grandparents,uncles and aunties only saw her once to send her off, but we know that Cassandra is loved by many. She is loved from the moment I had her in me.

We just miss her so much. 

Frozen In Time

4th December - Our lovely baby Cassandra turned 5 months old in heaven today.

'Frozen in time'. That's what came to my mind when I think about angel baby Cassandra because she would forever remained as 32 weeks 3 days old on earth.

The other day Keith was telling me he was also thinking about Cassandra and wonder how she would look like now if she is still with us. The closest image we could imagine is based on baby girls who are about the same age.

I had a dream couple of weeks back and in my dream Cassandra was a 1 year old toddler. I have dreamed of her 4 times since she earned her wings. I like to think that it is the way Cassandra try to stay connect with me by visiting me in my dreams.

Just miss her so very much. 

If you have not seen it, here is the the link to the album dedicated to our angel baby Cassandra which made from the artworks we have compiled to date from many other kind souls.

https://www.facebook.com/liztsc/media_set?set=a.10152734563686768.580216767&type=3&uploaded=1