Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Sealed

The Deal Is Finally Sealed.

I've been telling my friends and family about the project of my solo album for months and I finally got my contract signed and all the deal is set.

There were many discussions to and fro in the past months and I'm glad that I have it all settled yesterday. Now I got to get started and keep the ball rolling... keep rolling rolling rolling... keep rolling rolling rolling.... :)

So I'm gonna have busy busy months ahead but am not going to rush for it as I want to make quality music, besides, whether I make it or not, will all depends on my debut. So gonna do it right from the start.

Thank you so much to the people behind this (am not going to reveal too much for now) and I want to give a big shout out of love and gratitude to my beloved hubby, Keith. Without his love, support and understanding, none of this would ever materialised.

This is my official first step towards my Goal. It is no longer just a dream. ^.^

THANKS FOR BELIEVING IN ME........ God Bless

Monday, June 21, 2010

Chinese Lyrics

I've composed a melody and am trying to put in Chinese lyrics. I've been cracking my head for days but can't seem to even come out with 1 line.

Don't quite know how to express it in Chinese and how to form the verse. Should I outsource it? Hmmmm... How? How? How?

Will give myself till end of this week, else gotta get help from those who are very good in Chinese.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

On Treatment for H. Pylori Bacteria

Keith & I went for a blood test last month and a bacteria called, Helicobacter Pylori or H. Pylori in short were detected in my blood. I was advise to do a further check up for confirmation if that bacteria is found in my stomach as well. Hence, I made an appointment and went to a hospital this morning and did an Endoscopy.

The test came back positive and according to the doctor my stomach lining was very red, which might due to some inflammation. So now I have to take 1 week medication to treat it and to see the doctor again in 2 weeks time.

It is not really serious as many people have these bacteria in them nowadays. However, it is good to detect it and treat it early as this is the type of bacteria which might cause stomach ulcer/cancer in the long run if not treated.

So for those who always have gastric pain, heartburn or feel bloated even though you have a proper diet practice, do go and do a blood test on this H.Pylori bacteria to fins out if your problem is causes by that. Do not take it lightly as it might turn to something bad if not treated properly.

The procedure was pretty simple as I don't remember when I was knock out and when it ended as they put me on general anesthesia. As the dosage was low hence the grogginess didn't lasted very long after I regained consciousness.

The only down side is, when they stuffed the tube down my throat to my stomach to extract the cells for the test, it must have scratched my throat as it is a bit painful and swollen even until now. Hope the swell and pain will go away soon.

Monday, June 14, 2010

When Inspiration Strikes....

An inspiration just strike me this morning when I was busy working. I had to quickly write down whatever flow into my mind while rushing for my work. :D

I was kind of panicky as I still don't know how to use my new phone for voice recording and I didn't have time to figure it out then so in fear of forgetting the melody, I had to keep singing it in my head over and over again while working on the lyrics.

Whenever I have the inspiration to write a song, it is ALWAYS the chorus that strikes my mind first. So each time all the chorus are easy peasy. And then I have to slowly work on the other part of the songs.

I have a real love-hate relations with song writing as most of the time when I think of a title and try to write something, nothing would come out. My sudden inspiration always came unexpectedly and often caught me off guard and when I don't have the chance to actually record it down there and then, I'd have to try my best not to forget it. But sadly not all the time I can remember it as after a while the mind tend to drift off to some other thoughts. :D If I'm lucky, sometimes the melody does come back then I can continue to work on it. :)

As I am working on my solo album now, hence I am under pressure to write the songs. Yes, my debut solo album is gonna features all songs written by myself. :)

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Just Wondering

Mmmm... was just wondering, with the existence of Blog, how many people still write their diaries the conventional way?

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Awkward Self

I often feel very awkward about myself.

Contrary to what everyone may thinks, I never really feel good about myself. I don't really have much self confidence and I certainly don't feel attractive at all. Yup, I don't quite feel comfortable in my own skin. I believe I have mentioned this many times in my earlier posts. :D

In my own eyes, I always feel like I look like a Guy. Yes, I think I look like a Dude. But I have a solution. I just pretend that I'm a Transvestite. A dude that cross-dress as a girl and I also play the part.

Hence, I feel less awkward about myself now. Mmmmm.... it might sounds a bit weird but this is what it is. Some must be wondering why do I share something so personal with everyone. Well, I just want to tell all the ladies out there, you are Not alone.

Almost all female have this same issue no matter how they look. For example, I saw a programme on E! 2 days ago and they were talking about Mary-Kate Olsen's (one of the famous Olsen Twins) eating disorder problem. In one of her interview, she said that:"Sometimes when I look at my sister (Ashley), I'm thinking why can't I be as beautiful as my sister?". You see what is the problem here? They are identical twins and surely Mary-Kate is as beautiful as Ashley. So, why Mary-Kate had such thought? That is because we don't see ourselves as how other people see us. We often see ourselves base on how we feel about ourselves which link to our self esteem level.

We can never be good enough for ourselves and there are a lot of chain reactions as it not only affect ourselves, it would affect the people who love us & care for us as well. Ask me, I have been there done that.

So the only way not to make matter worst is try to find a way to make yourself feel good, even if you have to fake it. Trust me, if you can convince yourself that, you'll feel good about yourself eventually.