Tuesday, July 28, 2009

These Are Our Police...Or Samseng?!?!?

Got this video from a friend today so thought of just share it with you all.

I do not know what was the guy's offence as he could have beaten, robbed, rapped or killed someone...or he could have committed a minor offense...or he might be innocence of any crime.

Whatever it is I do not agree with what our police have done to that guy. We have laws so they should just let that guy be punished under the law and not take things in their own hair. Being a police give them no rights to mistreat or assault people as they like.


Tuesday, July 21, 2009

2nd Phase...

Since I was young I've been dreaming about recording my own album and in fact it has been intensify the past few months.

I almost given up as the sound engineers were all fully booked by other artists and I thought maybe it wasn't meant to be since I've waited since Jan. But then last Thursday, my vocal trainer finally told me that I can start doing my recording. And there I went quickly arranged with the sound engineer for today.

I've spent 2 hours in the studio recorded 2 songs. My trainer told me I did very well and very fast coz a lot of people would take 3-4 hours just to record one song. I wonder if it is true or she was just trying to encourage me and makes me feel good.

I think I did pretty well even though I had to redo many times in order to get the perfect pitch and all. I was very nervous at first but thank goodness the sound engineer is good so I felt more relax after a while. It was a very nice & fun experience but my legs were killing me as I stood for 2 hours for the recording.

I'll be going for another session this Thursday to record other songs and hopefully I'll be more relax this time.

And I'm glad I've finally move into the 2nd phase towards my dream. :)

Thursday, July 16, 2009

It's Finally Here.....

It has been long awaited, anticipated and hoped for for many years, especially the past few months. Finally, I need not wait any longer. The time is here, the time is now, the time is....next Tuesday.

I finally going to start on my recording next Tuesday and I'm very excited and nervous about it. I've dreaming about this moment from young and finally one of my dream is gonna be fulfilled.

I must take care of my vocal cord well and practice even more so I'll do great and need not spend too much time. My teacher said from today onwards I must stay away from all deep fried, spicy & oily food. I mustn't take cold water and I must get enough rest and sleep early. I also need to take Manuka honey and go for swim to strengthen my lungs capacity.

Wahhhhh...lots of preparation work to do but I know it will be all worthy at the end of the day!!!

My teacher said I mustn't get too excited and nervous about it. So I'm going to try to stay calm & cool. WooHoo...... :P

Friday, July 10, 2009

Presentable? No?!

I'm not upset anymore even though I was when I first saw the comment on one of my photo in FB, but I am larger than that so I'm totally cool after 5 minutes.

I know I should let it go and not talk about it anymore and let go I did, but I'm just still can't comprehend that kind of comment from a total stranger. For crying out loud, it was just some photos taken by 2 friends for fun so that they could practice and improve their photography skills while I get the chance to feel how is it like to be a 'model'.

You see, I am really used to people telling me that I'm not pretty when I was young and I had totally NO self esteem at all. There were plenty of emotional breakdown in the past of me crying and complaining about how disgusting I find myself each time I look into the mirror and seeing my own reflection. I only managed to build up some self esteem 2 years back by the help of my hubby unconditional love & patience and made me understand and realise that I should love myself and be grateful for what God has given me. And I've learned to accept who I am and how I look.

It is not an easy thing to go through growing up with people telling you that you are not pretty and that you are always the last choice because you don't look as cute or pretty as the others. I am still struggling with self esteem issue and sometimes it is really hard to keep up the positive thinking and motivation.

I wasn't upset at all when the person commented that I'm not pretty but I was utterly shock that she actually said I'm not 'Presentable'?!?!! I'm not pretty alright but who cares, that's the face God has given me and how God has made me. But...but....to the extend of being not presentable, that is really hurtful coz seriously, even though I never think myself as 'pretty' or 'beautiful' I never realise that I am that 'ugly' to the point that being not presentable at all.

Should I hide myself at home or wear a mask when I go out so that I will not disgust people?

LOL.....

Thursday, July 02, 2009

Assessment...

Time passes really fast. As we age, it seems to pass even faster.

It seems like we have just celebrated the new year a month ago but the very fact is, we have crossed half a year of 2009 and just another 5 months 28 more days to 2010.

Looking back the past 6 months, try to reflect on the things you have done and achieved and what you should have done but it's not? Personally, I can't say that I have really achieve anything so far but at least I have taken many first steps to try out stuffs that I've been wanting to do since a very long time. I don't really know what will all these lead to and whether I'll achieve what I've intended, but, I am certainly enjoying the process of getting there.

Not forgetting my beloved hubby, Keith, who has been really loving, patience, understanding and supportive in everything I do and I thank God for him. :)

Sometimes I do feel kind of guilty for asking and wanting to do so many things but I am not getting any younger so I guess it is a do or never kind of situation for me, hence this is my moment and I think I should go all out to work on getting what I want and not be procrastinate any longer. No matter what is the outcome, I'll be contend with it. As long as I know I've done my best. :)