Monday, June 14, 2010

When Inspiration Strikes....

An inspiration just strike me this morning when I was busy working. I had to quickly write down whatever flow into my mind while rushing for my work. :D

I was kind of panicky as I still don't know how to use my new phone for voice recording and I didn't have time to figure it out then so in fear of forgetting the melody, I had to keep singing it in my head over and over again while working on the lyrics.

Whenever I have the inspiration to write a song, it is ALWAYS the chorus that strikes my mind first. So each time all the chorus are easy peasy. And then I have to slowly work on the other part of the songs.

I have a real love-hate relations with song writing as most of the time when I think of a title and try to write something, nothing would come out. My sudden inspiration always came unexpectedly and often caught me off guard and when I don't have the chance to actually record it down there and then, I'd have to try my best not to forget it. But sadly not all the time I can remember it as after a while the mind tend to drift off to some other thoughts. :D If I'm lucky, sometimes the melody does come back then I can continue to work on it. :)

As I am working on my solo album now, hence I am under pressure to write the songs. Yes, my debut solo album is gonna features all songs written by myself. :)

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Just Wondering

Mmmm... was just wondering, with the existence of Blog, how many people still write their diaries the conventional way?

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Awkward Self

I often feel very awkward about myself.

Contrary to what everyone may thinks, I never really feel good about myself. I don't really have much self confidence and I certainly don't feel attractive at all. Yup, I don't quite feel comfortable in my own skin. I believe I have mentioned this many times in my earlier posts. :D

In my own eyes, I always feel like I look like a Guy. Yes, I think I look like a Dude. But I have a solution. I just pretend that I'm a Transvestite. A dude that cross-dress as a girl and I also play the part.

Hence, I feel less awkward about myself now. Mmmmm.... it might sounds a bit weird but this is what it is. Some must be wondering why do I share something so personal with everyone. Well, I just want to tell all the ladies out there, you are Not alone.

Almost all female have this same issue no matter how they look. For example, I saw a programme on E! 2 days ago and they were talking about Mary-Kate Olsen's (one of the famous Olsen Twins) eating disorder problem. In one of her interview, she said that:"Sometimes when I look at my sister (Ashley), I'm thinking why can't I be as beautiful as my sister?". You see what is the problem here? They are identical twins and surely Mary-Kate is as beautiful as Ashley. So, why Mary-Kate had such thought? That is because we don't see ourselves as how other people see us. We often see ourselves base on how we feel about ourselves which link to our self esteem level.

We can never be good enough for ourselves and there are a lot of chain reactions as it not only affect ourselves, it would affect the people who love us & care for us as well. Ask me, I have been there done that.

So the only way not to make matter worst is try to find a way to make yourself feel good, even if you have to fake it. Trust me, if you can convince yourself that, you'll feel good about yourself eventually.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Influence

In our short life time we come across many people in our lives. There are our family, relatives, friends, colleagues and acquaintances, which some might be with us in our entire life time and some are just few years or as short as just a few minutes encounter.

No matter the length of time that we spend with anyone , every single being that we meet plays a part in our lives. And every one of them would either influence or affect us one way or another. It need not be a direct face to face or online interactions. More often than not, we could be affected and influenced by merely visuals, words, sounds & touch from an ad on a billboard, a book we read, a speech, a twit, a touch or even just a stare. All these could affect us in so many ways without us realizing it. Its could simply change our thoughts, perceptions, decisions, feelings towards anything or anyone.

We, human being, often think too highly of ourselves and always live in a self denial world where we believe we are the most intelligence being on earth and we have total control of ourselves that we would not be easily influence by anything or anyone. But the truth is, we are not that impervious. Never underestimate anything no matter how minute it is.

For me being involved in a gothic metal band recently has actually caused some stirs and it was rather shocking to many of my friends and family members as they never have imagine I could associate myself with this sort of band. Well, to most people, they still have the perception that those who sing about hatred, condemnation, hell, blood & murder are witchcraft/Satan worshipper as the lyrics are often anti-Christ.

Many have shown their concerned and I really appreciate their love & care. As much as I try to convince them that I do not worship the Darkness and am still a God fearing person. I mustn't underrate the power of Darkness as many (those with similar experience) have told me.
I try to be more cautious about my behaviour and constantly pray to God for guidance in everything I do.

I may think I am in full control but I might be wrong. I am more wary these days when I pray to make sure that I am talking to Jesus and not the Satan. But so far I think I'm safe because I am still the same person as before.

So to all the people out there, thank you so much of your support and concern. Love ya all!!! Muackz....

I will be careful....as what you all have advised me. :)

Sunday, May 09, 2010

HALUN

Things are going really well for my band. The printing of album is about done and we had a band meeting this afternoon to sort out some issues and work out our jamming schedule.

Just gonna keep my fingers cross and pray for God's blessing for the great response for our debut album.

:)

Sunday, April 04, 2010

Rice Fields of Japan - Displays on the field in art form !!!

Everything has a Beauty. But, not everyone sees it.....
RICE FIELDS OF JAPAN - AMAZING
Looks ordinary enough...... but watch as the rice grows!!!!!!









Stunning crop art has sprung up across rice fields in Japan , but this is no alien creation.
The designs have been cleverly PLANTED!
Farmers creating the huge displays use no ink or dye. Instead, different colour rice plants
have been precisely and strategically arranged and grown in the paddy fields.
As summer progresses and the plants shoot up, the detailed artwork begins to emerge.

A Sengoku warrior on horseback has been created from hundreds of thousands of rice plants.
The colours are created by using different varieties of rice plants, whose leaves grow in certain colours.
This photo was taken in Inakadate , Japan ....

Napoleon on horseback can be seen from the skies.
This was created by precision planting and months of planning by villagers and farmers located in Inkadate , Japan ...

Fictional warrior Naoe Kanetsugu and his wife, Osen, whose lives are featured on the television series 'Tenchijin' appear in fields in the town of Yonezawa in the Yamagata prefecture of Japan ....

This year, various artwork has popped up in other rice-farming areas of Japan , including designs of deer dancers.
Smaller works of 'crop-art' can be seen in other rice-farming areas of Japan such as this image of Doraemon and deer dancers. The farmers create the murals by planting little purple and yellow-leafed Kodaimai rice along with their local green-leafed Tsugaru, a Roman variety, to create the coloured patterns in the time between planting and harvesting in September.
The murals in Inakadate cover 15,000 square meters of paddy fields.


From ground level, the designs are invisible, and viewers have to climb the mock castle tower of the village office to get a glimpse of the work.

Closer to the image, the careful placement of the thousands of rice plants in the paddy fields can be seen. Rice-paddy art was started there in 1993 as a local revitalization project, an idea that grew from meetings of the village committees.

The different varieties of rice plants grow alongside each other to create the masterpieces.
In the first nine years, the village office workers and local farmers grew a simple design of Mount Iwaki every year. But their ideas grew more complicated and attracted more attention.

In 2005, agreements between landowners allowed the creation of enormous rice paddy art.
A year later, organizers used computers to precisely plot the planting of four differently colored rice varieties that bring the images to life!

TRULY A WORK OF ART!

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Creative Coffins... Anyone?

These cool & unique coffins are made in Africa. Anyone interested to get it?