I've Changed but Yet The Same

I can tell you who I was. I can tell you who I am. But I can't tell you who I will be.

Everything that we are experiencing in our life changes the way we perceive things and the way we react to people and incidents from time to time.

Tomorrow I may dislike what I love today. Things which are so intolerable to me now may not bother me a single bit tomorrow.

Time is passing and we are changing constantly, every second, ever minute and everyday.

But no matter how much I've changed over the years, I am still....who I am. The core does not changed. Only my perceptions and approaches towards people and life itself have changed.

Why You No Like Me?!

Have you ever wonder why some people don't like you?!

Let's say you are the type that don't gossip about people, you always mind your own business and do your best not to comment much on anyone nor anything to minimize the chance of offending someone or something (What?!). And you are certain you don't do anything that might hurt or shortchange others for your own gain. And yet, not everyone likes you.

And then you keep wondering why is someone you know, who always seem to have much to comment/condemn about other people, the one always with the latest gossips practically about everyone you may or may not know. That someone, seems to be much more well receive by others than yourself.

Even if your are a very nice person, doesn't mean everyone would like you (sorry, I'm not implying I am a very nice person, though I like to believe I am, but I do have my own shortfalls and I know what they are). Likewise, even if you are a horrible/annoying person in certain aspects, not everybody would dislike you.

Everyone of us has our own personalities and we have our like and dislike. Sometimes even 'A' has never do anything bad towards you, but just because of the way he/she laugh, somehow the sound just tick you off for no reason. Or whatever the person says seems to spark off your temper and you just can't help yourself giving sarcastic comments right after his/her every statement.

I do wonder if I am being too sensitive and have got the whole idea wrong. The thing is, people might not dislike you, but because people might find someone who does not have much to share or talk about, BORING! So they rather talk to people who always have lots of stories to tell as a form of entertainment. :D

Nevertheless, I believe you have the intuition to tell whether someone likes you or not because most people are not good in concealing their feelings. If they don't like you, it's actually pretty easy to tell. I think it is pretty normal that when you don't really like a person, you would do your best to minimize any unnecessary contact and only talk to that person if really have to. All of us can be on either side or both sides.

Bottom line is, we may not really like all the people we know and vice versa. I guess that is OK provided you don't go and start talking bad about people just because you don't like how that person dress or other minute/silly reason. 

What I'm trying to say is, it is fine if you don't like me and you don't want to hang out with me. I respect and accept that. All I ask for is please do not ever imply something negative about me to others that make other to be prejudice against me. Because I can really swear that I have never done this to anyone in my entire life.

Long Forgotten.... Not!

I have not update my blog for a very long time to the point that I almost forgotten I ever have one. :P

My hubby occasionally pop up the question, "Are you still updating your post? If not, why don't you shut it down?".

"No. I don't want to", I replied, "Even if I don't ever update it again I will want to keep it there ( unless Blogspot removes my blog), Coz, it has all the memories and life experiences I have gone through over the years. I would love to read it once in a while".

There were many times I've wanted to login to my blog and start typing away with all the things that happening in my life. But then, I always have this worries at the back of my head, what if some people read it and don't like what I written? Or they may interpret it wrongly and start to judge me negatively?

Oh well, I think too much and worry too much. I should stop this at once.

From now on, I will start writing down my thoughts and experiences in life whenever I feel like it. No more worry about what other people think about me. Because, after all these years, I realized one thing, people who really know you would not easily misinterpret you and judge you, but if people don't like you and don't bother to get to know you, no matter how positive the things you say or do, they will have it twisted and turn into something ugly.

 So here I am. Restarting the engine.

Vrooommmm....Vrooommmm......

Happy New Year 2011

Another year has passed.
This is not the end nor the beginning,
It is the continuation of our lives until our last breath...

My Experience in Kumpuchia

Keith & I just came back from Cambodia for a 3D/2N trip. Honestly, when come to holiday destination, country like Cambodia would never be our pick because our impressions on the country was sloppy and certainly nothing much for us to explore around as we are not interested in temple visits.

As it is not convenient for me to disclose the reason that led us there, so let's just say it was a God blessing to allowed us to have such humbling & enriching experience after seeing the life styles and living conditions of the majority of the low/medium income Cambodians.

It was a whole new experience altogether seeing the real thing comparing to what we saw on TV/magazines. The impact is so much greater after talking to the locals during our visits to all the major old ruined temples like Angkor Wat, Bayon, Pink Lady, Tomb Raider and many others to understand more about their history and the life of their people. It really made us realise that what we have back home in Malaysia is some sort of a comparison between Heaven & Hell in many ways.

There is no regret of the trip eventhough there really isn't much to do, so a 3D/2N trip was suffice for us. Foods that we have tasted in different stalls and restaurants were pretty tasty. However, the cost of living in Cambodia is certainly very high comparing to their earning power. Majority of them can't afford to eat out in their entire life, with the exception of those working as tour guides which they get the chance to get free food from the restaurant in return of bringing the tourists there for meals or the driversbeing invited by the tourists to have theri meals together (which we did). It is common for Cambodian to have home cook food for all 3 meals a day. Even for Keith and myself, we find things in Cambodia are expensive.

Everything in Cambodia is transacting in US Dollars. Imagine people are earning as low as USD30 - USD600 a month but a plate of fried rice actually cost USD4. While a can of Coke cost USD2 in Cambodia, a can of beer cost USD2.50. So just do a simple math.

Life there is really tough. Children as young as 3 years old are being exploited by their parents to sell souvenirs at all the tourist hot spots. You would be approach by at least 10 people asking you to buy something which mostly are selling the exact same things. But luckily they would just ask & beg but not touch you.

This short trip make us realise how bless we are with all the things we have. It was certainly a worthwhile trip. If you think you have a lousy life, terrible job, envy of your friends who can afford branded goods but you can't or not satisfied with anything in your life, go make a trip there and see what kind of life people are leading in country like Cambodia. You will realise how lucky you are after that.

Funny & Creative

Received these pictures from a friend and thought of sharing it with you all as I think it's very creative and amusing. Hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

New Experience

Yesterday was my very first experience as a recording artist attempted to record my debut single. Oh my..... it's a totally different experience all together as a recording artist.

I have recorded an album for my personal collection last year, which I simply pick a few songs, practice a few times and headed to the studio and recorded the songs. That was really easy as it was just like singing Karaoke.

The 2-3 hours spent in the studio yesterday has proved challenging. I was really nervous but still I thought I would be able to finish recording the song in that one session. But I was so wrong. It is not that easy after all. What makes it even more challenging is because I write my own songs so everything has to starts from scratch and it is really depends on myself how I'll deliver the songs well in my own style.

I finally understand why some artists can actually take a few years to produce one album and now it makes total sense to me as in why these days the recording companies would release singles as and when a new song completed. It is really not easy to produce an album and it does take lots of time and hard work to make good music.

It's gonna require more effort than what I've expected but nonetheless it is a great experience and I am glad that I have make it this far. :)

Though I wish to release my single as soon as possible but I'm not going to rush it for the sake of doing it.

I promise myself and those who support me that I will make serious and good music. :)

So, please be patient my dear friends! Cheers!